Talk about new beginnings, I’ve started this post 5 times now. Each time I edited, deleted and started again.
My thoughts are actually pretty simple, but I’m so worried about how they’ll come across that I can’t get them out. This confession pretty much sums up why I can’t get my blog, podcasts, or vlogs established as real thing anymore – I want approval. That’s such BS. I’ve always been the one to offer my head, my reputation, my anything as a sacrifice for the greater good – and there are a LOT of interesting stories about me because of that – yet writing a blog after all these years is still hard.
Hang on a minute… I’m making a note to myself about working on my level of self-love and self-acceptance.
So, I’m putting new energy behind this blogging thing at the request of my daughter, Sarah. At 26, she is my BFF, both my biggest fan and my greatest critic, so I can only assume that when she told me her one wish for me this year is that I create one post a week, about anything, in any format, that she really does believe that I have something worthwhile to share, and, here I am.
I don’t make resolutions as much as I use the Solstice and New Years as a reminder to take stock of how I’ve spent my time over the preceding months and make adjustments to my course. Here’s some of the things I want to address:
- I haven’t spent as much time reading in the last few years as I used to, having to wear reading glasses made reading less fun, I promised myself this year I would learn to get beyond that and read regularly again.
- There was a time in my life when I spent upwards of several hours each day with a pad of paper drawing, designing, creating, so I’ve begun a bullet journal and have made an effort to spend more time with paper.
- I won’t be dieting, but I have joined a gym now that I have a regular paycheck coming in – let’s see if I can make that be part of my life again.
- I don’t need or want a lot of people in my life, I would like a BFF, and that might mean a girlfriend or it might just mean a really good friend; this means I have to let myself be more vulnerable and accessible to people this year, a little more play & a little less work.
I think the most important thing to take away today from this post is this; It doesn’t matter how long it’s been since you did something, it doesn’t matter how old you are, or what you know or don’t know. It doesn’t even matter if you’ve failed spectacularly once, twice, or a dozen times before – there is always an opportunity for you to decide to it’s time for new beginnings.